There’s nothing left to do, nothing more to say. The silent descends upon you with an oppressive force. really suffocating underneath the weight of a momentary, but seemingly eternal, nothingness.
Have you ever felt this way? That feeling of desolation, that feeling of a gaping hole inside you. If you’ve ever suffered from depression, despair, or loneliness, maybe you’ve wondered how feeling empty can be so painful.
A feeling that intensifies and so does your desire to seek relief. So what happens now, do you reach for the bottle of alcohol in your refrigerator, or that old bottle of prescription pain pills you have stuffed in the back of the cupboard, maybe the phone to call that “friend” for that sexual fix, all in an attempt to escape your old dark complexion -emptiness.
Emptiness that is a feeling of inner desolation: A complete absence of joy, hope, or satisfaction. When we experience emptiness it feels like we are plunged into an inner abyss which often results in addictive and escapist behavior.
I have to admit in an attempt to fill the hole in my soul, I’ve reached for the alcohol, prescription drugs, and the sexual endeavors. In order to feel better if just for a little while.
But there’s so much more to feeling empty than meets the eye. It’s a perplexing emotion that is closely linked with the process of spiritual awakening. I spent years and years trying to fill a hole that felt like a bottomless pit. trying to cope with the numbness of the emptiness each day is enough to trigger major inner life shifts.
Go to any doctor and I’ll try to diagnose you with a mental illness. Don’t get me wrong, while emptiness is sometimes caused by neurological chemical imbalances. I would dare to say that for most people, it goes far deeper than that.
When it comes to exploring, what is really causing emptiness, be careful. I’ve run into so many justifications which sound true, but in reality, they are just band-aid symptoms of much deeper issues. Band-aid symptoms like I don have enough money, my partner doesn’t love me anymore, I have no close friends. You have to dig deeper than that.
It’s pretty common to have “soul loss.” A condition of being disconnected from your soul. Whether it be trauma, abuse, childhood conditioning, or ego centered to living.
Soul loss manifests itself as the eternal sense that something is missing from our lives. It’s sometimes disguised as a perpetual search for happiness, which often results in misguided, futile and externally, focused pursuits. The obsession with money, fame, power, beauty, and the perfect relationship are all attempts to get back the things we thing we’ve lost. When all have done is lost contact with our soul.
This soul loss seems to be a modern epidemic of epic proportions these days. It’s symptoms manifest as low self-esteem, suicidal, depression, mental illness, physical illness, and rage. And in extreme circumstances, acts of violence, cruelty, and depravity.
When we lose touch with our soul, and are feeling empty, we will inevitably lose touch with our life purpose. What are you destined to create, or do? What does your heart crave to Express? How do you experience self-fulfillment? When you experience so loss you may think “who the hell knows.”
I think we are all brainwashed and conditioned to act certain ways. Since childhood, we are pressure to conform and fit into nice little boxes by our parents, teachers, and society. As adults, it seems to be the same story. We think that we are the ones using the accounting degree, finding a partner, getting a mortgage, and on and on… We listen to what everyone else tells us about who we should be ignored. We really are. Why is it that people experience break ups, job loss, death, and illness is socially accepted. But one more painful please come along like emptiness it feels like are left behind.
We can promise ourselves, but we will read more books, lose more weight, exercise, more often, eat, better foods, and invest in a more spiritual life. But yeah, we focus on external life, will I be accepted by…? We focus to changing the things on the outside, that people can see. When is the things that can’t be seen that need the most work.
We seem to forget, but Jesus works from the inside out. He’s more concerned with our heart. 1 Samuel 16:7 Solomon council his own son. “Keep your heart with all diligence, for of it proceeds the issues of life. As we grow up and develop, physically, the heart is the last thing on our minds. We are more concerned about our hair, our weight, our fashion, our muscles, and our accomplishments. The things we think make us worthy among our peers.
I find it ironic that we live in the most free country in the world, but many of us remain shackled inside, fettered by bad habits, addictions, and lifestyles. We are like flames bragging on marketplace about how free we are to do whatever we want.
In March 6:36-37, Jesus asks a very important question, What will it profit to gain the whole world, but lose your own soul? And what will a man give in exchange for his soul?
Just like the famous Pharisee Nicodemus, who had a fame, education, status, money, and influence. He felt empty. Everything celebrated today everything experience with, every thing we have dabbled with, can leave us feeling empty inside, even if your thin and beautiful while doing it. Most people think these worldly things are enough to fill the hole in your hole. But it never works.
The rock truth is everyone has a hole in their soul. That hole is designed by God, he made us that way.
“For the creation was subjected to vanity, not of its own will, but because of Him who suggested it, and hope that the creation itself also will be delivered from the bondage of decay into the liberty of the glory of the children of God“ – Romans 8:20
Simply put, our Creator made us with a God-shaped hole that nothing except God can satisfy.
God made you with a hole in your soul, and only He can fill it. And that alone brings real change. We can try to fill it with alcohol, drugs, people, experiences, status, and fame, but nothing will truly satisfy you. Sex drugs, and rock ‘n’ roll just make the hole bigger.
The only way to fill the hole is to seek God, who made it in the first place. You can be forgiven for your past and find purpose in your life and that hole in your soul will be filled once and for all.
From Pity to Praise 