I used to think I was a mistake. I wasn’t supposed to be born. Not because my mother told me I was, but because of what I was going through. I used to sit in the closet and ask God why He was allowing these things to happen to me. After years of abuse, I started believing God hated me.
Anyone who understands the truth about God knows that God does not make mistakes. Not a one. Never.
But that is not to say that it does not appear to us that sometimes maybe He has. It is our perspective that is limited, while God’s in infinite. It took me years to understand this because I didn’t understand why a good God would abandon me. I didn’t understand that He was strengthening me from a very young age. For many years I refused to believe He existed. The walls I put up to protect myself were keeping Him out as well. The mistake was mine, due to my limited knowledge and wisdom.
In Job 42:1-3 Job was talking to God and He says,
“Job answered the Lord, I know that you can do all things and that no purpose of yours can be restrained. You asked, who is this who hides counsel without knowledge? Therefore I have uttered that which I didn’t understand, things too wonderful for me, which I didn’t know.”
We learn in Isaiah 55:8-9 that “God’s thoughts are not our thoughts, and our ways are not His ways.“
If you were to think that only people who are unbelievers, or perhaps with only very weak faith, would ever question God’s decisions, plans or deeds. you would be wrong.
I didn’t believe because I didn’t understand. Now that I understand and have seen God’s work in my own life was well as people around me. I am thankful that God allowed me to go through what I have. We are strengthened my our trials and tribulations.
If we look in Genesis at the example of faith in the Bible is Abraham. Even Abraham had questions in his mind about whether God was doing the right thing. He was a man of great faith, and didn’t foolishly charge God, or mock or rebel against Him. As I have done in the past. I thank God every day for forgiving me.
Abraham’s attitude was always, “When I hear God speak then I will respond.” He was quick to hear, not merely listen. That is exactly what our attitude ought to be as well. That’s what faith is all about. We need that kind of reverence for the Lord.
We don’t know all the facts or the end results and we do not have access to all the important information. Sometimes we are quick to judge God because what we are going through. But we have to choose to live by faith. We may not have all the facts but God does. We have to trust God and do what is right and wait for the victory.
I know that now and I am a stronger person today because God allowed, what I thought was His hate, was really love.
God doesn’t make mistakes
From Pity to Praise 