Hardest Personal Goal

What was the hardest personal goal you’ve set for yourself?

The hardest personal goal I have set for myself was retraining my brain to think positively.

During my entire childhood, my brain was fed negativity. My mother made sure of it. Things like “you are not good enough, you can’t do anything right, no one will ever love you, you’re so stupid.” She had trained my brain to never think positively about anything I ever did, as I thought what she told me was true.

I lived with thoughts like this for nearly 40 years. Which led to drug abuse in my younger years to try and escape from the pain, doom, and gloom I constantly felt. It was the only time it was felt happy.

I was married, had children, and held down a full-time job, and still felt worthless. But I knew I would Never! Treat my children the way my mother treated me.

It wasn’t until my children were raised and moved out, that I began working on myself.

The way you communicate with yourself has a major impact on how you feel about yourself. Positive self-talk has the power to propel you to great heights.

Negative self-talk can bring you down to the depths, where you feel like giving up. I found myself regularly engaging in negative self-talk because it was ingrained in my head. I beat myself up about everything I did positive or negative. When you constantly tell yourself you won’t succeed or do anything right it leads to wanting to make yourself unalive.

But it turns out it is possible to teach an old brain new tricks.