“Nothing is too hard for God. He can do what seems impossible” -Kia Stephens
For 30 years I pleaded for God to intervene in my life. I used to weep at night asking God to help me to take me away from my mother.
After a long time crying, I decided that God didn’t care either. I stopped asking God for help because he never answered.
It led me down a darker path then I was in. Alcohol, drugs, sex, depression and anxiety. I was angry at God, for not taking me out of my situation.
After I got married and found out I was pregnant I stopped drinking and drugs. I knew I had to buck up and be a mother, and definitely not like one my mother was. I hid everything that was going on in my life for the sake of my daughter and my son. But nothing ever stays hidden forever, it all come out, through sickness, and I began I would get up and get my children off to school and then go back to bed until school was out. After dinner I went back to bed. Thank God my husband took care of the children.
It wasn’t until my children were 8 and 9 that I got them to church. I still didn’t believe. But the church teaches good morals and values. I was baptized right along with my children They did things with a few churches until they graduated high school.
It wasn’t until 4 years after they moved out to start their own journeys that God began to do amazing things in my life. Because over the years I had put up walls to protect myself from being hurt. It wasn’t until I made the active choice to break down those walls that began healing me from everything I had went through. The walls protected me from getting hurt, but they also blocked me from the love I so desperately needed.
He forgave me from all my sins and accepted me as His daughter. He healed me from cancer, and sent me a few amazing friends that would support me on my journey. Things I never thought possible. I was baptized again, this time because I believed in Him not because I did it for other reasons. It was because of Him I was able to let go of all the bitterness in my soul.
Love is the fundamental aspect of God’s nature and love for others is an important virtue. God’s love is not just an attribute, but His very essence (1 John 4:8).
From Pity to Praise 