Am I living in bondage

Do you ever feel like every time you try to rise above your situation some unknown resistance renders you unproductive and devalued. You smile, but your actions and reactions all stem from a source seemingly out of control. You desire change, but default to the same ways. Some deep embedded issue surfaces and causes you to have mood swings or even become enraged.

If you relate in this in any way you may have become your own prisoner. You’ve accepted this as your normal lifestyle. It is called bondage and can affect everything in your life.

Inner healing is a process

When we think of bondage we see pictures of battling addictions such as drugs or alcohol. These chains are very apparent. What about someone that lives everyday fighting the failures of their past.

A woman delivered from years of abuse and mind control must learn to live beyond that fear and insecurity. It is not just removing her from the physical presence of abuse but starting a process of inner healing and affirming her worth. If she doesn’t receive adequate support and counseling, she may continue to live in bondage of fear and depression it will become a life lived under the control of her abuser without the actual abuse. This is bondage. I know even the fact that my mother abusing me during childhood as an adult I still feared her even if I didn’t see her very much. I expected this in my marriage I would be under the same bondage because that’s the lifestyle I knew. I let him emotionally control who I was. I would have horrible dreams about my mother and him telling me how useless I was. I was living in complete bondage and I was doing it to myself I was a prisoner of my own life. Sadly it too me over twenty years to overcome it. Because I didn’t know what I am telling you right now. It took me a lot of therapy to release all the anger and everything I kept shoving deeper inside.

Recognizing the problem

Do you find yourself withdrawing from the world around you, do thoughts of your past hurts, fears, or tragedies always rise to the surface and cause unwanted actions or reactions. Are you holding on to guilt and shame for something you have done? Just like a nicotine addiction you have made promise after promise to yourself that you would refrain from this type of behavior, but it just doesn’t seem possible. You feel destined to be this way. You may have even thought that this is your normal. You live in misery and sadness, hiding your feelings like there is no way out.

These things that keep someone in bondage have been intertwined in your daily lives that are almost Unrecognizable as a problem it has become hard for people to see the imminent danger there vices process.

Many would deny that they have a problem, because this has been their normal way of life. They proceed with their routine and the things that chain them conquer their days everyday. They battle the same miseries and unhappiness, shake it off to find new ways to cope.

A surrendered life

The depression, fear, and emotional trauma of the past are chains that must be broken in order for you to pick up the pieces and thrive.

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