Price River by Helper Utah Parkway.

Where do you go when you have hit rock bottom.

I had finally hit rock bottom emotionally, financially, mentally, and spiritually. The crash was so painful in every way, but I finally had no choice but to face myself brutally, painfully, and honestly.

As I looked back the first thing I said to myself was what the heck did I do to my life, everything I had once planned for was gone all I had was thus useless life.

I also had immense gratitude for the gifts that time bestowed upon me. First of all I had tried to kill myself numerous times. How lucky I was to even be alive. It instilled in me a deep trust in the universe contrary to my appearances ad bank account.

It’s crazy to say this but I would do it all over again for the incredible strength and growth I had gained in my darkest hours.

Sometimes hitting rock bottom is a good thing it sure was for me.

Reflection and Realizations- at the bottom, you realize how far off course you were, and that your life choices were simply not sustainable. It’s in those dark moments of despair that your anger and frustration become so great and you declare once and for all to never accept such mediocrity from yourself or from others again.

Seeing your dysfunctional behaviors- are finally revealed if you never hit your lowest point, the dysfunctions continue to go unnoticed and unchecked, playing out under the denial radar and inevitably creating bigger dysfunctions and a harder fall down the track. Until the bubble bursts, and cleverly deludes yourself into thinking everything is just peachy, and your life ends up being built on a big fat lie and a false foundation.

Gaining Fresh Perspective- Hitting rock bottom of questioning everything that you’ve ever thought to be true. You question your motives and other’s motives, your beliefs, you fears, why you did things, why you didn’t do things, why you attracted certain people and circumstances, why you succeeded in something’s and not in others. The very fabric of your life is turned upside down and examined in raw detail. It’s from this point on that you build again from the ground up, with a fresh perspective based on your renewed sense of clarity.

Self-awareness of Bad Habits & Behaviors

At the bottom, your disempowering pattens and behaviors become glaringly obvious, and the triggers that kept you repeating those behavior patterns come into sharp focus. You realize that hitting rock bottom was not only inevitable but necessary, because those behaviors were simply not conducive to your growth. On top of that, and perhaps most importantly all the roles you have been playing pops into your conscious awareness. It becomes quite clear that you’ve been a kind of puppet, playing the same role over and over, and keeping the drama going over and over, like a well-paid actress(actor) in a soap opera. It’s not until you break the mold and start the journey back to your true self that you stop playing those old, scratched records and begin to create new conscious outcomes. I had it explained to me how many time are you going to go around the mountain before you try to go through it or up it, everything will stay the same until to change what you’re doing.

Trusting in life

You realize at the bottom that you were, in fact, not where you thought you were in life. You let your ego run the show with grandiose ideas about what you could do- not knowing you didn’t yet have the foundation to successfully accomplish those things. Ego’s death grip losses when you come to this realization, you start to trust life’s and choose to live in the moment more often. As you surrender to you higher self more and more, you align with your right purpose and right path. And it feels good.

Humility-

You gain humility. You see that life is not all black and white and that you don’t know everything in fact you know very little and then you decide to be a student of life rather than a juror.

Compassion-

You gain compassion. You understand what it’s like for people in the depths of despair, shame, guilt, grief, and fear. You cannot help but come back from the bottom feeling immense empathy for people with human conditions.

Letting go-

You are able to let everything go because nothing is working anyway. Letting go of the old leaves space for the new and some new ideas, People, opportunities, talents, and gifts start to flood into your experiences. As you empty your cup you fill it up again with stuff that you actually want, instead f accepting unconsciously assed on to you. Life hands you a cup of reality.

Taking responsibility-

After you have hit the bricks, you begin to accept full responsibility for the outcomes in your life. You see that blaming is futile, that complaining is dumb, and that making excuses is for the unenlightened. You realize it was you who created all the good and all the bad in your life. You dug the hole in which you were trapped and only you can dig yourself out. And finally become whole.

The only way is up-

The good news is once you’ve hit rock bottom, you know you can’t go any lower and it’s only up from here. Use the bottom as a springboard to push yourself up to the surface, away from the darkness and back into the light.

Trusting yourself-

Hitting rock bottom wake you up and how you were relying on externals to make you happy. Instead of needing outside validation you begin to trust yourself and start a journey within to find your own sense of worth and sense of self. This new inner sanctuary becomes the foundation for your happy and meaningful life.

Gratitude-

Finally after hitting your lowest point yo become grateful for all that your have from that time forward. You’re sure that your situation can only get better from here, and it does. Simple things like fresh food, a smile from a stranger, warm clothes on your body, a bed, good health, becomes like treasure. You existence is a constant prayer of gratitude to the universe and to yourself for not having the courage to move beyond hard times and choose life when you could have chosen a number of other options just to make the pain go away.The jewels mined in your darkness moments are what give you courage, wisdom, and richness that cannot be learned anywhere else.

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