I’m learning to let things align with my life when the time is right, to let the universe bring them to me without having to run after them because if you have to run after something it means that it doesn’t want to stay still, it doesn’t want to be caught, it doesn’t want to stop at your door. I’m trusting God that what’s meant for me will find me no matter where I am. I’m not passive but I also won’t fight a losing battle.
I’m learning to stop decoding Messi and mixed signals a wait for the clear message, the message that is so obvious and easy to understand, the message that doesn’t make you question or second guess anything, and the message that you’re waiting for.
I’m learning to let those who don’t want to be in their lives go. I might even hold the door open for then because I don’t want a temporary visit anymore. I don’t want to share my life who doesn’t want someone who does want to share theirs. If people don’t want to spend time with me, they obviously don’t want to know who I am as a friend.
I’m learning to be patient with myself. Taking it easy on myself. Being kind to yourself if you mess up. Give yourself forgiveness and love take a few deep breaths and try again. Let your mistakes be memories instead of labels.
I’m learning to let my mistakes prove that I’ve tried for things there weren’t right for me.
I’m taking the wisdom I got from all those mistakes; the wisdom that taught me that mistakes happen because we are forcing something that is not meant for us and we are trying to get something we probably should have.
I’m learning to stop trying so hard to control my life. It’s okay if we don’t have all the answers or if we’re not where we want to be. I’m learning to let life talents course instead of trying to steer the wheel in another direction. We won’t always get what we want I want but life will give me what I need. I’m learning to treat life as a friend, trying to understand it, trying to love it when it’s being difficult, trying to accept it’s frustrating me, and trying to appreciate the experiences it has provided me with, the memories it gave me, the laughter it brought me and the sadness it put me through just to grow into who I am right now.
I’m learning to let things be and look at life as a person; a person who is also still trying to figure out, a person who is flawed, and a person who wants to be better on most days but falls short on other days like everyone else.
I’m learning to let the force of life move me instead of forcing it to stop.