About 6 years ago I hade a flat-out hit rock bottom, mentality, financially, emotionally, and spiritually. The crash was very painful in every way, I had lost the love for my husband, I had no money, I prayed all the time, to no avail, I was emotionally and mentally broke. I had nothing and nowhere to go. I felt my life was over, nothing mattered anymore. So where do I do from here, two thoughts entered my mind. End my life, or go until I could go no further. I finally had no choice but to face myself brutally, painfully and honestly.
I had nothing to lose, but as hard as I tried it didn’t feel like I was getting anywhere. I looked back on the decisions I had made and the times when I tried to commit suicide and the time I was near death in the hospital and the Doctor told my family that I was clinically dead when I arrived. I woke up three days later in Intensive Care, no know what had happened or even where I was.
I realized I had immense gratitude for the numerous gifts that I had bestowed upon me. Every bad decision, every dangerous event that I had brought on myself. All the close calls. Why was I still alive? T instilled in me a deep trust that a higher power actually did have my back, contrary to external appearances and bank balances.
You might think I’m crazy for saying this, but I’d do it all over again, for the incredible insight and growth I gained through what we’re my definitely darkest hours.
Through my life it seems I was destined to fail. But, I have learned some solid lessons and with the wisdom to share from having survived the falls.
I believe everyone will hit rock bottom in their life. But it’s what you do with it, that matters.
There are reasons that hitting rock bottom is a good thing:
Reflection and Realization
At the bottom, you will realize just how far off course you were, and that your life choices were not sustainable. It’s in those darkest moments of despair that your anger and frustration becomes so great and you declare once and for all never again to accept mediocrity from yourself or from others.
Seeing you dysfunctional behaviors
At the bottom, all your dysfunctional behaviors are finally revealed. If you never hit your lowest point, the dysfunctions continue to go unnoticed and unchecked, playing out under the denial radar and inevitably create bigger dysfunctions and a harder fall down the track. Until your bubble bursts, you cleverly delude yourself into thinking everything is just great and your life ends up built on a big fat lie and a false foundation.
Gaining Fresh Perspective
Hitting rock bottom is the beginning of questioning everything that you’ve ever thought to be true. You question you motives, your beliefs, your fears, why you did thongs, why you didn’t do things, why you were attracted to certain people and circumstances, why you succeeded, why you failed. The very fabric of your life is turned upside down and examined in raw detail. It’s from this point that you start building again from the ground up, with a fresh perspective based on your renewed sense of clarity.
Self-Awareness of Bad Habits and Behaviors
At the bottom, your disempowering patterns and behaviors become glaringly obvious, and the triggers that kept you repeating those behavior patterns come into sharp focus. You realize that hitting rock bottom was not only inevitable but necessary, because those behaviors were simply not conductive to your growth. On top of that, and perhaps more importantly, a,k the roles you’ve been playing pop into your conscious awareness. It become clear that you’ve been a kind of a puppet playing a role over and over, creating the same dynamics over and over, like a well-payed actor in a soup opera. It’s not until you break the mold and start the journey ack to your true self that you stop playing the old useless cassette tapes, or scratched record player and begin to create new conscious outcomes.
Trusting in Life
You realize at the bottom that you were, in fact not where you thought you were in life. You let your ego run the show and grand ideas about what you could do not knowing you didn’t yet have the foundation to successfully accomplish those things. Ego’s death grip loosens when you come to this realization; you start to trust life and choose to live in the moment more often. As you surrender to your higher self more and more, you align with your right purpose and right life path. And it feels good.
You gain humility. You see that life is not just black and white and that you don’t know everything. If fact you realize you know very little, and you decide to become a student of life rather as a juror.
You gain compassion. You understand what it’s like for people in the depths of despair, shame, guilt and fear. You can’t help but come back from the bottom feeling of true empathy with the human condition.
In my starting from the bottom up, I have hopefully helped many people that are where I have been. And treated them as a living soul inside of just someone you walk by in Walmart.
You’re able to let go of everything because nothing is working anyway. Letting go of the old creates space for the new and soon new ideas, people, opportunities, talents, and gifts start to flood into your experiences. As you empty your cup, so to speak, you fill it back up with stuff that you actually want instead of accepting what was unconsciously passed on to you. Life gives you a fresh cup of reality.
After you the rocks and bricks have hit you, perhaps for the first time begin to accept full responsibility for all the outcomes in your life, this might feel scary at first, but you’ll see that blaming is fruitless, that complaining is dumb, and that making excuses is for the unenlightened. You realize it was you who created all the good and all the bad in your life. You dug the hole that trapped you, and only you yourself can dig yourself out, in order to become whole.
The Only Way Is Up
The good news is, once you’ve hit rock bottom, you know you can’t possibly go any lower. You realize the bottom is actually a great springboard to push yourself up to the surface- away from the darkness and back toward the light.
Hitting rock bottom wakes you up to how you were relying on externals to make you happy. Instead of needing outside validation, you begin to trust yourself and start the journey within to find your own sense of self, your own sense of purpose, and your validation. This new inner sanctuary becomes the foundation for you happy and meaningful life.
After hitting your lowest point possible, you become enormously grateful for a,, you have from that time forward. And your situation can only get better from here. Simple things like a smile from a stranger, fresh food in the fridge, warm clothing and a bed to sleep in and a roof over your head become treasure p. Your existence is a constant prayer of gratitude to the higher power and yourself for having the courage to move beyond the hard times and choose life when could have chose a number of other options that would have made the pain go away.
As someone who has been there, there is a way out of that pit you dug for yourself and it can be the best thing that ever happened to you,