God works through trials.
The last few weeks I have reflected on the trials and challenges of my past. I was asking myself:
1. Why did God make me go through my childhood neglect and physical abuse? I have asked God over and over this question. And was never satisfied with what I felt like He was telling me. Finally, I was drawn to James 1:1-13. The first 13 verses give usan understanding of the purpose of trials that come our way.
When we think about it. What was the good that has come from trials? I know from my childhood, I became very independent at a young age. I learned to watch people, instead of talking. But I was angry for a lot of years for Him allowing this to happen in my childhood.
What comfort does our past trials have given us? I know because of the trials I have lived through I am comfortable in most situations and when I’m not I have a right to back away from the situations that come my way.
I think about how many times I tried to kill myself and never succeeded. Why? Didn’t taking a bottle of morphine end my life. Why didn’t injectioning an entire bottle of insulin kill me? I used to pray to God to not let me wake up in the morning, pray I would be dead in the morning. I really don’t know why, except God has a amazing purpose for me.
When difficult times come into our lives and we find ourselves unable to comprehend the enemy is quick to throw doubts and questions into our minds..
We find ourselves questioning God’s goodness and wisdom in allowing these things to happen.
We may even be bitter and angry with God for allowing these things to happen.
We may even be bitter and angry with God for allowing things to happen to us and wonder if He even loves or understands us.
But God’s word confidently reminds us that God does love us and understand us.
Things don’t just happen haphazardly to a follower of God. Things have a purpose. God is in control as Paul reminds us nothing can separate us from God’s love. (Romans:8) even in the most difficult trial to mold us, to mature us. So that we will be more like Jesus Christ our Savior.
Isaiah the prophet said in trying to comprehend God’s ways: “For my thoughts are not your thoughts. Neither are your ways my ways, said Jehovah.” For the heaven scare higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts are not your ways. (Isaiah 55:8-9)
God would have us trust Him in the difficult trials.
Even though we cannot understand He loves us and His is in control.
He will use our trials to help us grow spiritually and to help us mature and become more like Jesus.
God not only has purposes in trials but He also gives us wisdom in our trials.
Yes, I have had a trial-filled fill, and I had to grow up very fast. Through my trials I have chosen to be a bridge in other people’s trouble-filled lives.