Sin, as a Christian, is something I couldn’t be more familiar with. It hovers around me everyday, it’s always close, and I can’t get rid of it. The constant cycle of sinning and confessing has always troubled me, because if the Lord ever returned, could I enter the kingdom of heaven like this? In my torment,I think of Apostle Paul’s words, “Who shall lay anything to the charge of God’s elect? It is God that justifies, Who isHe that condemns?” (Romans 8:33-34). “There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus” (Romans 8:1). Yes, I am one of the Lord’s elect, the Lord has already forgiven all my sins, and no matter whether they are past, present, or future sins, He forgives them all. He no longer sees me as a sinner,and when the Lord comes, I will be able to enter the kingdom of heaven.
Coincidentally the Lord has forgiven us of our sins, but we still sin, we can’t keep the Lord’s way, and in our daily lives, we still deceive, lie, act in crooked, cunning ways m scheme and plot, become envious and squabble among ourselves, and are arrogant and self-righteous. We live in a cycle of sinning every day and confessing our sins every night, and we have not escaped our sinful natures and become purified. The Lord Jesus said: “Truly, truly, I say to you, Whoever commits sin is the servant of sin. And the servant stays not in the house forever: but the son stays ever” (John 8:34-35). In 1 Peter 2:16, He also says, “Because it is written Be you holy; for I an holy.” In these words we can see that people who haven’t escaped from the bondage of sin cannot enter the kingdom of heaven. We should believe in the Lord according to the Lord’s words, not according to man’s words. Paul was only a disciple, nothing more than a corrupt man. Wouldn’t you say so?
I can’t help but think: God is holy and righteous, so sinners are unqualified to remain in God’s kingdom. God hold the key to the gate of the heavenly kingdom, while Paul is merely a corrupt man. How could his words be the standard for entry into the kingdom of heaven? If we want to enter the kingdom of heaven, we need to determine the way based on God’s words, not the words of man.
I am a sinner, and God is Holy, which is a wide gulf between myself and God. How could I even hope to enter the kingdom of heaven while it exists?
To think I could is only deceiving myself. With Bible verses like “Holiness, without which no man shall see the Lord” (Hebrews 12:14) and For the wages of sin is death” (Romans 6:23), my heart was pierced with torment when I saw these verses. I often involuntarily sinned and resisted God, I was in bondage to sin and lacked the strength to escape, and this meant I would never be worthy to see God. Entering the kingdom of heaven was merely a dream for me.
I tried several ways to escape the bondage and restraints of sin. Once I fasted, and hiked to a mountain and prayed before the Lord to confess my sin, but afterward, I still sinned. I also strived to practice the Lords words and to be an honest person and to stop myself every little white lie I’ve told, but the moment something touched my interest, I lied involuntarily to deceived not only myself but others are well. Because I was tempted by these interests. Not only that I saw my brothers and sisters fellowshipping more clearly than myself, I became jealous of them… This troubled me deeply, I don’t know how many tears I cried before the Lord as a wept to Him.”Lord, how can I escape the bondage of sin and enter the kingdom of heaven? I would cry.”
And I believe God heard my prayers. One day I was visiting an old friend and was telling her my troubles and she said “we are created beings. By ourselves, we are powerless to overcome sin. If we want to escape the bondage of sin and be purified, we must ask God to work on our behalf and save us.”
Those who lived late in the Age of Law, were corrupted even more deeply that us because they didn’t have enough sacrificial offerings to redeem their sins, and they were always in danger of being condemned to death for violating the law. They could only cry out to God and bet Him to save them. God heard their cries and prayers, and to redeem people from the laws, God became the incarnate Lord Jesus, granted them rich and bountiful grace, and taught people how to confess their sins and repent, and allowed Himself to be nailed to the cross for man, after that we would no longer be condemned to death by the law for our sins, instead we can simply pray to God,enjoy the Lord’s grace and blessings, and have our sins forgiven. But our sinful natures are rooted deeply within us, and because the time has not yet come we will have to live in the cycle of sinning every day and repenting every night. We have to wait until His work to purify and save us, before we can completely rid ourselves of sinful nature. Jesus prophesied, “I have yet many things to say to you, but you cannot bear them now. However, when He, the Spirit of truth, is come, He will guide you into all truth; for He shall not speak of Himself; but wherever He shall hear, that shall He speak: and He will show you things to come” (John 16:12-14).
“And if any man hear My words, and believe not, I judge him not: for I came not to judge the world, but to save the world. He that rejects Me, and receives not My words, has one that judges him: the word that I have spoken, the same judge him in the last day” (John 12:47-48). From this we can see that the Lord will return in the last days to express many truths, as well as judge and purify our sins.
We must accept all the truths expressed by Christ in the last days to escape from our sinfulness, completely purifying ourselves of our satanic natures, and be completely saved by God to enter the kingdom of heaven.
Having read to this point, I understand that the reason I couldn’t escape the bondage and control of my sinfulness was that the Lord Jesus only did the work of redemption, not purifying and changing our dispositions. The Lord only redeemed people from the laws, and gave people the opportunity to come directly before God, pray to Him and receive His salvation. For those of us who hear the Lord’s words but cannot practice then, and who live trapped helplessly in a cycle of sinning and repenting, the Lord does not condemn us or judge us. In the last days the Lord will return, speak many new things, as well as Judge, purify and change us to completely escape the bondage of sin and live in the likeness of Him.
Until Jesus returns to Judge or purify us. We will have to continue to sin and repent for our sins. Knowing that Satan is right there hoping we won’t repent for our sinful nature, so he can win our souls. We can not stop sinning, but we can keep asking for repentance of those sins. And turn away from those sins, and turn toward God.
We Must Never Stop Trying To Be Who God Wants Us To Become. God Will Never Stop Leading And Guiding Us. We Just Have To Learn From Him, Listen And Obey.