The Hardest Decision

What’s the hardest decision you’ve ever had to make? Why?

My hardest decision I ever had to make was whether to stay or go.

As I’ve mentioned before my husband and I have had some rocky roads. When years of pain and suffering and fighting came knocking on my door. I knew I had to make a hard decision.

I thought about whether I could trust him, and whether I could ever forgive him for the things that had happened and if he could ever forgive me as well.

After running away from it all. Leaving without knowing where or how long I would be. I knew it had come the time which path to take.

After the fourth day, I knew I had to go back and face the fact that I’ve avoided. After seeing a divorce lawyer. I came home to face my husband.

My husband and I sat down and talked like we haven’t in years. In the end the decision was made to start over. With a cleans slate. That meant forgiving each other, and choosing to move forward with a new plan that was based on respect, trust, and a whole lot more of communion.

So far I think it was a good decision to stay. Marriage is hard, it takes work, and each person giving 100% of themselves to the other. It’s not just about the gushy feelings that we have for each other. It’s choosing to love with your heart and head.