The Passage Of Time

How do significant life events or the passage of time influence your perspective on life?

Anyone who has experienced childhood abuse knows the very core of the person’s being is altered. Their entire sense the world is turned upside down.

Surviving unthinkable abuse has changed the way I’ve developed. For year’s I’ve experienced fear and shame, anxiety, which shaped me into something I sometimes don’t want to be. I have worked hard on learning coping mechanisms to deal with my feelings of distrust and abandonment issues, and low self-esteem.

I’ve worked hard to not live in survival mode. For most of my life, I’ve felt constantly on edge, hyper-vigilant, and ready to react defensively to perceive threats, even seemingly safe situations which put me in a constant state of fight or flight response due to my brain having learned to prioritize self-preservation over feeling safe and relaxed.

I’ve worked hard to change my perspective on life, but not before I took a toll on my physical health. It is one of the reasons I started this blog, thinking maybe someone can learn from my mistakes.

“Always try to learn from other people’s mistakes, it’s much cheaper that way.”